I honestly can't fucking take this anymore. It's almost time for me to go to college and I'm retty sure I haven't lost any weight, just gained some. I'm fucking huge, I eat like a fucking cow every single day, and I just feel like it's never going to get any better. I'm so fucking tempted to just take five vicodin and sleep the night away, because i don't want to risk eating everything in sight again. If that's what it takes, I'm fcking willing to do it. I can't fucking take this anymore, I can't take being fat and eating everything in sight so mindlessly. I don't want to be the fat girl at school, I can't be fat anymore, I can't fucking do this, I'm about to be sick.
I swear to god I wish i could just fucking kill myself. on top of being the most disgusting and fat fuck that i have ever seen, my dad is streeing me out and i'm probably going to fail out of college and owe them like a fucking million dollars by the time i graduate. i fucking hate everything, i hate my life, i wish i could just die. JUST. FUCKING. DIE. I can't stand being this fat anymore, i can't stand being fucking alive. I'm going to reply to all these things on IJ and then I'm going to pop five vicodin and sleep until it's tomorrow afternoon. NOAEgfna;dglnasdg. I ate today but it was only once and i'm not fucking eating again. I'm fasting all this week, then i'll go t that girl's day thing and eat a little but then i'll go back to not eating because i really can't even stand being alive right now, i can't stand feeling my legs rub together, i wish i was dead, i wish i was fucking dead.
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